I’ve literally been sleeping for the past 4 hours, and I don’t think I’ve ever needed it more.

Going back to sleep.. Hopefully for days.

how i feel is that i’m waiting for something to blow up in my face with this.

im just holding on until the day you decide this isnt worth your time or your effort, and you decide you don’t love me anymore.

im just waiting for something.. anything to happen.

I just want to be with you.

And for you to be with me. And only me.

I’m so mad at myself right now. Alls I wanted to do all day was see you, I rushed back from the game and everything, and I still manage to get you mad at me. I wish you would just tell me what you wanted me to do. It would make everything so much easier. This whole situation makes me so frustrated.

My intention was not to go behind your back, nor was a decision final. I did take off in case I did end up going, but I also knew I wanted to talk to you about it first to see what your feelings were. I know we kinda talked about it once before, but it was kinda brief, and I wasnt sure what I wanted to do.

Not only are you everything to me, you are the one person on this planet who I would do absolutely everything and anything for. I do not like the way our phone conversation ended, and I wish things were different so you could come over and we could talk and then just hangout and watch the golden girls until we decided this was stupid and we got to make out.

I love you more than I’ve ever loved anything or anyone on this whole entire planet. So let’s just stop this nonsense and go back to normal.